Depressed… it just keeps biting

The tears sneak up…

No matter how hard I try, no matter how much I work in therapy, no matter how much I put a smile on my face for people… in the end it is this depression that still always reaches up and bites me in the ass and it hurts all the way to my heart and no matter how hard I try to keep from crying no matter how long… the tears… they always end up falling.  I am so freakin tired.  Trying and trying but always getting bit and always having this hurt and forever having to soak up the tears…

First Blog…

Just trying this new blog thing out.  My compter wont let me do everything for some stupid ass reason.  Like change the font color.

This is me at 3am very sleep deprived fooling around with my phone... just giving you and idea of how ugly I am when I am so freakin tired...

This is the only pic of my Dear Mom right before she was killed. Its a copy of a copy so it is not that great.

She is the most beautiful person ever to me… I miss her and love more than anything.

Life Sux………